Shit Happens

Every once in a while, I have days when I just dont want to talk to anyone but myself.And when I find myself in that mode - all I want to do is pull the sheets back over my head and drift away to someplace where no one knows me.

Today was one such day. Thank god it has ended. Tommorrow will be a new day a new beginning.

Fill me up, buttercup

I think I am down with a mild case of brain network congestion. The brain version, I mean. I don’t think that means anything actually. I think I know. It could mean that my thoughts are off balance and totally mixed up. Thoughts right now have lost their equilibrium.

Life is strangely coming together and falling apart at the same time in ways that I didn’t anticipate. I cannot begin to describe where my life is at right now because I have no idea where it is or where its going. Someone once said, If you dont know where you're going, any road would take you there. I guess that what I am doing. Walking on a some road to nowhere to stand still.Totally surrounded by unknown more than ever. I find that it is easy and convenient to push away certain aspects of it for a bit of time. At least while I try to figure it out.

Maybe I am just too bored or have thought a lot of things that are beyond the functional capacity of my brain. The latter seems to be the case. My head today is just too full of things that equate to nothingness. Its empty yet flooded. The fact is life has filled in properly.

Hum kis gali ja rahe, apna koi thikana nahi
Armanon ki anjuman mein, besud hai apni lagan mein

Sigh!

Building Bridges

There are journeys to places, cities, countries. Then there are journeys of a different kind that involve people. They say sometimes the greatest journey is covering the distance between two people. Thats a timeless and a limitless journey. A neverending trail to set foot on. Strangers become aquaintances. Aquantainces become friends. Friends may become foes. Strangers and friends may become partners. Partners may become estranged. Transformation and Metamorphosis -All on the journey!!

At times, it takes a lifetime to really know people, and even after an eternity you still dont understand them even when they communicate through words. Sometimes, if you are lucky enough, the opposite happens, ie you finding people who understand even the unsaid from the look in the eye. Its a tightrope walk between being yourself and projecting a certain image, letting yourself loose and holding yourself back, percieving and judging others. The beauty is that the person on the otherside is just like you, walking a tightrope too, on the same journey to knowing you. You need to bare it for others to see you and for you to see them. Complexities galore.

Despite all the fallouts from it, being quite friendly and open to people, I have felt, it can take a minutely small insignificant gesture to bridge the gap between two people. A bright smile. A routine sms. A human touch. A tight hug. A funny joke. A warm kiss. A friendly hello. A catchup phone call. A small email. Thats all it may take. Isnt undertaking this journey of knowing people great for what its worth.

And as Joey would say it - How you doin ;)