Monday, October 20, 2008

To moon and back

3:35 PM: Having settled down into seat 22 of my train bogie, I read 'ISRO is planning a trip to the moon' in the morning newspaper folded and stacked in front of my seat, looking outside and waving to my cousin, returning to home turf. A khichdi of thoughts in my head,id say. Thought of sorting them out one by one and keying in this one using my phone :). Im sad,that the fun filled extended weekend has come to an end and il be back to mundane life. But happy, a totally spontaneous and unplanned trip,but a totally a well deserved break for me.

Reason for the trip: New Addition to our extended family. My paternal grandmother is a great grandmother now. My cousin was blessed with a son.So there was a small gettogether, nothing fancy. But, hey - there is abosolutely no cost of celebration. Visiting my cousins after 2 yrs was a bliss. The mere tag of 'dilli wali didi' feels like a 'Miss World' title. People in lucknow actually brag if they have relatives in Delhi/Mumbai.Being abroad is a big big deal. Yeah Yeah, lucknow is still a small town trying to come up to a metro level. But there are something delhi definitely misses. The culture.

Add-ons: The evenings went into enjoying the walks in Aminabad and Hazratganj in the old city charm, savouring the local food - the tunde ke kabab, lassi in a kulhad, the batashe(golgappe) filled with dahi, the tonga ride, the harley davidson shared tempos, the meetha paan at chowk, malai pedas, the phapdhas(plz dont ask me wats tht),Ram laddus and so much more.

Extra Baggage: Lucknow is the place if you want to buy the summerish chikan emroidered saree/suits and kurtis. My shopping for summer collection for 2009 began from lucknow :) And 1 plate of packed Dum Pukht Biryani as per my neighbours request.

Enough texting, I better enjoy the frooti now, another 6 hours of chuk-chukking towards home. I think the auntie sitting next to me wants to start small talk.

See You Delhi..Here i come :)

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

A dogs life!

Leaving the house in the morning, dressed in clothes that you bought on credit card, for work, driving through the traffic in a car that you are still paying for, putting in petrol that you cannot afford, in order to get to the job that you hate but need so badly so that you can pay for the clothes, car, petrol and the house that you leave empty the whole day, in order to live in it. (Courtesy - A random email)

Funny and ironic, aint-it?

Sunday, October 12, 2008

C'est la vie! Sa Guerre!

Well yes when the going gets tough and life throws lemons at you, there is little you can tell yourself to keep your head from spinning in a whirlwind. Even tears failed me this time. Just when i thought there was nothing that could cheer me up, a french song came to my mind, i had learnt when i was taking french classes way back in school - C'est la vie! Sa Guerre! (This is life, Its war!). Thank heavens, there was something on this earth that could infuse some positivity into my life. And who cares, if its in Zulu or Swahili or French. As long as i get the drift.

Life is a new fight everyday. From getting up in the morning,to catching the bus everymorning, to get work done and meet your own expectations. Sometimes people fail you, at other times you fail people. And with each new day, comes new challenges and new peaks to scale. An ongoing war it is, each day little by little. All but 24 hours. A day is never going to have one minute more or lesser than that - no matter how long a day seems when you're low or how quickly the day ends when its been a good one for you.

Sometimes, the only solution to a problem is to go through it rather than skirting around it. I guess most of us are in the insecure phase of our postered lives. Juggling the eggs, and dropping one or more eggs will often result in a mess. But, you’ve got to keep going through it, till you learn the lesson :) Patience and Perseverance are the keys.

Me to Life: Bring it on! Its war time to make peace ;)

Life to Me: In winter, when the fields are white,I sing this song for your delight. In spring, when woods are getting green, I'll try and tell you what I mean; In summer, when the days are long, Perhaps you'll understand the song. - (Lewis Carroll)

Bonne Nuit!

Friday, October 10, 2008

Feeling Bleah

Why are all my single friends not in delhi :(
A few words of appreciation is all i need :)
Its my brother's bday today, but we cant celebrate, he's not here :(
I need to do more shopping for diwali :D
I just hope i can get out of this seat soon, lots of work to do :(
Im hungry and craving for veg chopsuey :(
I had 2 cups of lemon tea, it keeps me awake :/
Im trying to stay calm and keep my anxiety in check :/
Im feeling hopeless rightnow :o
I want to crawl into my bed into my mom's lap to be pampered :)
I need a break from everyday routine. Maybe i should pack my bag and go on a trek. :?
Do i fit into this world at all =(
A whole lot of laundry to be done this weekend :/
I wish it was my bday today, so that i could be on cloud nine to get so many calls ;)
Hopefully there is something nice on TV today :|
Maybe i need to make new random friends :?
I need to keep my head and spirits high :)
Fridays should not feel this way :/
'Bleah' is such a nice word. It says it all. im feeling bleah today.

And now i have to get back to work :O
10 mins break is up :(

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Wedding Bells and more

The Navratras are going on, not that im very religious or something, but its supposed to augur well for people. And so, it seems to be having its effect. S just broke the news to me that she is getting married on 19th November of this year, then it was P's call that made me real happy. P is 2 weeks pregnant. :)

On the other hand, F is already managing a handful of kids, A and M will be soon trying to have a baby. Another friend S is expecting her baby in December and B is busy shopping for his wedding in December.

Just feels a little odd at times being single when most of your friend circle and peers are settling into life, starting a family or getting married. Chit-chatting about movies, food, shopping, clothes, girls, guys is passe. These things dont interest them anymore. Its given way to more serious conversations about life - expenses, bills, grocery, husbands, wives, babies, responsibility. And to these topics I have little to contribute to these talks from my end. Ggrrrrrr!! Puts me in a tight spot. I find myself doing the trapeze act of walking a tight rope, talking about a place im not there yet and a spot my friends have left behind.

Although the number of relationships with people is increasing in the process of friends getting married and having kids, the circle of friends is shrinking - they getting busy with their own new found lives. Not just friends even cousins my age are getting married. Im not getting any younger by the day, and i feel the time to settle down with life is nearing. Soon,il be moving out of the mid-20's clan.

A little voice in my head says - Bide your time and stand in line to wait for your turn, sweetie! All in due time!