Is it raining where you are?
Does it hit the glass window like it does here?
Does it make you smile like it does here?
Does the sun shine brighter when you wake up?
Does the night turn to darkness when you sleep?
Does the polestar guide your way when the clock strikes midnight?
Does your heart beat faster when I am not by your side?
Does the wind blow and ruffle your hair?
Does your heart stop when you think of me?
Does the song remind you of me?
Is it raining where you are?
Monday, July 27, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Complicated Heart
The average human heart, beating at 72 beats per minute, will beat approximately 2.5 billion times during a lifetime. It weighs on average 250 g to 300 g in females and 300 grams to 350 grams in males. Thats the biology of it.
But has anyone been able to give a number to the number of times the heart skips a beat or the weight of heart when it becomes heavy. The heart really is a complicated little thing that pumps life into us.
In the very heart buzzing with activity, there is a silent corner, from its depth a thousand emotions vibrate with every heartbeat. Countless feelings in unsaid words, whispered to self. These words and thoughts encircle the head like an invisible halo. These words. They trouble you. They comfort you. They puzzle you. They protect you. They calm you. They engulf you. They wrap you. At times your emotions are all you have and it is more than enough.
Don't know what to say now
Don't know where to start
I don't know how to handle
A complicated heart
But has anyone been able to give a number to the number of times the heart skips a beat or the weight of heart when it becomes heavy. The heart really is a complicated little thing that pumps life into us.
In the very heart buzzing with activity, there is a silent corner, from its depth a thousand emotions vibrate with every heartbeat. Countless feelings in unsaid words, whispered to self. These words and thoughts encircle the head like an invisible halo. These words. They trouble you. They comfort you. They puzzle you. They protect you. They calm you. They engulf you. They wrap you. At times your emotions are all you have and it is more than enough.
Don't know what to say now
Don't know where to start
I don't know how to handle
A complicated heart
Friday, July 24, 2009
A Phone Call
For a whole day of 24 hours, Have you ever not let your cell phone be away from sight and earshot distance even for a fraction of a second because you are waiting for ONE call that has very low probability of coming?
I did that today today :)
I did that today today :)
Thursday, July 9, 2009
The Kaminey Factor
Listened to the title track of Kaminey a lil apprehensively. What would a song titled 'Kaminey' offer? A look up on lyrics did help to an extent. Almost every line of the song has a gaali. But as they say - Never judge a book by cover. Downloaded it and listening to it since morning. This song has taken me by surprise. It is a beautiful song with great lyrics. It definitely will stay on my playlist for a long long time. Gulzar at his best. Somethings just get better with age. An ideal end-of-the-day-song to unwind and reflect on life.
Kya kare zindagi isko hum jo miley
Iski jaan kha gaye raat din ke giley
Raat din giley
Meri aarzoo kameenee mere khwab bhi kaminey
Ik dil se dosti thi yeh hazoor bhi kaminey
Deep down, there is a an element of 'kameenapan' in all of us. We all have nasty habits. Sarcasm is my core skill and people around me know i can rip off anyone's pride within seconds. I know it stings like a bee and thats precisely why i do it on most occasions. I guess it comes naturally to quick witted people. At times i have had a taste of my own medicine. With time I am learning to not let my sarcasm it cross the fine line between humor and arrogance. Sarcasm is a great defense mechanism, one I’ve adapted and perfected and taken on as my own personal shield. I try to focus on my sarcasm, and while I think most of it is harmless, I know I can be totally insensitive. The plagiarist in me sings - Meri kuch aadatein kameenee :P Really?? Heck, No!! *As if your opinion matters* *chuckles*
So tell me - Whats your K(read Kameena) factor??
Kya kare zindagi isko hum jo miley
Iski jaan kha gaye raat din ke giley
Raat din giley
Meri aarzoo kameenee mere khwab bhi kaminey
Ik dil se dosti thi yeh hazoor bhi kaminey
Deep down, there is a an element of 'kameenapan' in all of us. We all have nasty habits. Sarcasm is my core skill and people around me know i can rip off anyone's pride within seconds. I know it stings like a bee and thats precisely why i do it on most occasions. I guess it comes naturally to quick witted people. At times i have had a taste of my own medicine. With time I am learning to not let my sarcasm it cross the fine line between humor and arrogance. Sarcasm is a great defense mechanism, one I’ve adapted and perfected and taken on as my own personal shield. I try to focus on my sarcasm, and while I think most of it is harmless, I know I can be totally insensitive. The plagiarist in me sings - Meri kuch aadatein kameenee :P Really?? Heck, No!! *As if your opinion matters* *chuckles*
So tell me - Whats your K(read Kameena) factor??
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Lets make a night to remember
Iv been home alone for a week. And its not a nice feeling to come back to an empty house after work specially when on other days its bustling with three other people. And so V came over and i asked him to stay at my place.
The weather was lovely with pre-monsoon showers and it was 12 in the night. We went for a stroll at that hour. Pleasantly surprised i was, staying in the campus for last 27 years i had never walked on the deserted paths at 12 in the night. And we walked and talked about random things, chased frogs and stopped by the drain to watch fireflies. Good stuff happens on dark stormy nights i guess.
Later in the night we talked about people and life with a free flow of emotions and memories. Watched old photographs :) And talked some more and dozed off at 5 AM in the morning while V was still speaking about something :D
Woke up at 9AM and had milk and bread n butter and i left for work and V left for his home. Did not have so much fun in recent times. Felt recharged. Glad to rediscover that i still have stamina to stay awake all night and talk.
The icing on the cake was V's email and SMS next day. It will certainly keep me going for a few days :) In V's words - Never thought a night with man/woman could be so much fun with our pants on ;)
I guess that says it all.
The weather was lovely with pre-monsoon showers and it was 12 in the night. We went for a stroll at that hour. Pleasantly surprised i was, staying in the campus for last 27 years i had never walked on the deserted paths at 12 in the night. And we walked and talked about random things, chased frogs and stopped by the drain to watch fireflies. Good stuff happens on dark stormy nights i guess.
Later in the night we talked about people and life with a free flow of emotions and memories. Watched old photographs :) And talked some more and dozed off at 5 AM in the morning while V was still speaking about something :D
Woke up at 9AM and had milk and bread n butter and i left for work and V left for his home. Did not have so much fun in recent times. Felt recharged. Glad to rediscover that i still have stamina to stay awake all night and talk.
The icing on the cake was V's email and SMS next day. It will certainly keep me going for a few days :) In V's words - Never thought a night with man/woman could be so much fun with our pants on ;)
I guess that says it all.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Eat, Pray, Love
Just finished reading 'Eat Pray Love' by Elizabeth Gilbert.
After a divorce and a bit of a pre-mid-life-crisis, the 30-something author decided to spend a year trying to restore balance to her life by traveling solo to three places: Rome, India, and Bali. This book chronicles that year. Its her search for everything.
The book Eat Pray Love is also being made into a movie starring Julia Roberts.
A few lines from the book have really struck a chord in my head and heart. It is so profoundly true and beautifully put.
Quote The resting place of the mind is the heart. The only thing the mind hears all day is clanging bells and noise and arguments, and all it wants is quietude. The only place the mind will ever find peace is inside the silence of the heart. That's where you need to go. Unquote
At times im not at peace because there is a constant head vs heart struggle. And rarely it happens that they get along. In most situations my head and the heart have torn me apart.
At times i have a craving to eat something and if i decide otherwise, it later haunts me and i come to a point where i think i should have eaten it. Thats a small thing my heart told me. There have been bigger things my heart told me, but i ignored all the warning signs and tried to suppress what it said. In the end, you know whats going to happen, dont you? And it does happen. The heart told you so, but you never listened. Now can you really complain?
So, if you find yourself alone and If you are on the road and you dont know the directions and If every door you tried was locked and If the river seems too wide and deep to cross. If the mountain seems too high to scale. Dont worry!! Listen to your heart - your heart will lead you home.
One needs to follow the heart as the heart never lies and would guide you even if you're lost in hostile Sahara or Arctic. And then you shall find ourself once you're completely lost. :)
After a divorce and a bit of a pre-mid-life-crisis, the 30-something author decided to spend a year trying to restore balance to her life by traveling solo to three places: Rome, India, and Bali. This book chronicles that year. Its her search for everything.
The book Eat Pray Love is also being made into a movie starring Julia Roberts.
A few lines from the book have really struck a chord in my head and heart. It is so profoundly true and beautifully put.
Quote The resting place of the mind is the heart. The only thing the mind hears all day is clanging bells and noise and arguments, and all it wants is quietude. The only place the mind will ever find peace is inside the silence of the heart. That's where you need to go. Unquote
At times im not at peace because there is a constant head vs heart struggle. And rarely it happens that they get along. In most situations my head and the heart have torn me apart.
At times i have a craving to eat something and if i decide otherwise, it later haunts me and i come to a point where i think i should have eaten it. Thats a small thing my heart told me. There have been bigger things my heart told me, but i ignored all the warning signs and tried to suppress what it said. In the end, you know whats going to happen, dont you? And it does happen. The heart told you so, but you never listened. Now can you really complain?
So, if you find yourself alone and If you are on the road and you dont know the directions and If every door you tried was locked and If the river seems too wide and deep to cross. If the mountain seems too high to scale. Dont worry!! Listen to your heart - your heart will lead you home.
One needs to follow the heart as the heart never lies and would guide you even if you're lost in hostile Sahara or Arctic. And then you shall find ourself once you're completely lost. :)
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Just another Day...
...Just another casualty. Each new day is a new fight in itself. The alarm wont ring. The milk gets spilt on the shirt. The team mate is absent. The PC conks off. The boss wants a report urgently. The list is endless. Everyday there are a hundred things that can go wrong and one of them just goes wrong.
And when things go wrong, you find yourself on the darker side of things. Amongst all those times, there is one thing that has really helped me sail through is my extremist attitude. Im am a person who always likes to see things in black and white. It is either this way or that way. Taking the middle path has never been my philosphy in life.
Often we all take advantage of looking at things the grey-way. It seems that the main reason to apply this way of thinking to our everyday life is simply that this way of seeing is to our benefit. Travelling in two different boats at the same time may land you in the pool of water. Ever Kabir Das, mentions in his doha that things get ground between two ways.
चलती चाक्की देख के दिया कबीरा रोए
दुइ पाटन के बीच में साबुत बचा ना कोए
Choosing a destination and deciding between this and that tough maybe, but makes life easier. Its a choice we have to make and then deal with it. No choice is easier than the other. But its important we make one and face the consequences.
Time and again i have made wrong choices, but im glad i made them as i could stand by the concious choice i made. Even if i failed, its easier to deal with the failure coz making the choice was my responsibility and so are the effects of making that choice. Its slightly easier to take it in our stride.
Yehi hai right choice baby - to make a choice!!
And when things go wrong, you find yourself on the darker side of things. Amongst all those times, there is one thing that has really helped me sail through is my extremist attitude. Im am a person who always likes to see things in black and white. It is either this way or that way. Taking the middle path has never been my philosphy in life.
Often we all take advantage of looking at things the grey-way. It seems that the main reason to apply this way of thinking to our everyday life is simply that this way of seeing is to our benefit. Travelling in two different boats at the same time may land you in the pool of water. Ever Kabir Das, mentions in his doha that things get ground between two ways.
चलती चाक्की देख के दिया कबीरा रोए
दुइ पाटन के बीच में साबुत बचा ना कोए
Choosing a destination and deciding between this and that tough maybe, but makes life easier. Its a choice we have to make and then deal with it. No choice is easier than the other. But its important we make one and face the consequences.
Time and again i have made wrong choices, but im glad i made them as i could stand by the concious choice i made. Even if i failed, its easier to deal with the failure coz making the choice was my responsibility and so are the effects of making that choice. Its slightly easier to take it in our stride.
Yehi hai right choice baby - to make a choice!!
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