Cruise Control

Sometimes, I wish I had a cruise control mechanism fitted within me. Been going full throttle without looking and thinking. Living life in the fast lane is tempting and whats tempting makes you vulnerable; vulnerability exposes you to risks and threats; And they aren't easy to manoeuvre at a high speed. And then Bammmm!! Before you know it, you have already rammed into something. And whats worse is, you wont even know what it can do to you.

Ek lamhe mein simat aaya hai sadiyon ka safar
zindagi tez, bahut tez chali ho jaise

Slow down, I tell myself. It’s not enough to just slow down — one needs to actually be mindful of whatever one is doing at the moment. That only comes from knowing whats around us, and only possible when you take a pause to see whats surrounding us. And then you know whats coming your way and then bump into it ;) You'l know whether to stretch your arms to embrace it or fold them to block it.

Save your steam and fuel, drive along its a long winding road ahead! Bring on the cruise control!!

Full Circle

Life has a funny way of coming back from behind and biting you hard. But Im not losing my sleep over that. Its time to face the truth. Whatever you do, you have to pay your dues to life. At this point cannot agree more with Justin Timberlake singing what goes around comes around.

Someday you are the statue; someday you are the pigeon. And there is no escaping that.

Ab mujhe Koi

The latest love of my life is this song from Isqiya sung by Rekha Bhardwaj. Beautiful. Melodious. Heart Wrenching. Simple. Addictive. Soulful. Soft. Deep. Soothing.

Ab mujhe koi intezaar kahan
Ab mujhe koi intezaar kahan
Wo jo behte the aabshaar kahan
Ab mujhe koi intezaar kahan
Ab mujhe koi intezaar kahan
Wo jo behte the aabshar kahan
Ab mujhe koi intezaar kahan

Aankh ke ek gaon mein, raat ko khwaab aate the
Aankh ke ek gaon mein, raat ko khwaab aate the
Chhoone se behte the, bole to kehte the
Udte khwaabon ka aitbaar kahan
Udte khwaabon ka aitbaar kahan
Ab mujhe koi intezaar kahan

Jin dino aap the, aankh mein dhoop thi
Jin dino aap rehte the, aankh mein dhoop rehti thi
Ab to jaale hi jaale hain, ve bhi jaane wale hain
Woh jo tha dard ka qaraar kahan
Woh jo tha dard ka qaraar kahan
Ab mujhe koi intezaar kahan
Woh jo behte the abshaar kahan
Ab mujhe koi intezaar kahan

Aabshar = Tears/Water

Listen to it and tell me if you liked it.

2010 : POA

Naa..thats not another movie..or maybe it will be. The plan of action I have in mind for the year is all about..

Loving more, fearing and planning less;
Life isnt a game of chess;
Less of crying, more of laughter;
Dont think whats gonna happen after;
Learn to swim, paint a lot;
Remember what previous years taught;
Eat,Dance,Work and Be yourself;
Read and stock more books on the shelf;
Think but forget the worry;
Want a dog, cute and furry;
Make more friends, travel some more;
Lets see what this year has in store;
Bury the past, start afresh;
Fight for your pound of flesh;
Be more human and giving;
Live, not just make a living;
Plant your feet firmly on the ground;
Look high upwards to the skies around;
Welcome everything with open hands;
Dont watch life from the side stands;
See ahead not the rear;
Simple things for this year;

Amen!

Endings & Cynicism

Endings make me think. Whether its a movie ending or a relationship ending or a year ending, Endings make you reach a point, where you just have to guage where you stand and choose between what you lost and what do you stand to lose.

Endings make me look at my standings as of now. Check the debits and credits and profits and losses and finally do a reality che(ck)/(que) of what remains in the end, when the end has ended. More often than not, my reality cheque bounces. The life's bumps and bruises have made me cynical over the years. I see bottomlines and fail to see there isnt one at times coz of the pessimistic cynic in me.

The word ‘cynic’ seems to be used commonly in the pejorative, as a form of weirdness by those with little intelligence to contribute. Even GB Shaw said , “The power of accurate observation is commonly called cynicism by those who haven't got it.”

It isnt so bad to be a cycnic, we are just too observant and question facts and the realities. We just hypothesise everything negative and believe that everything is possible. We simply believe that the realm of the possibilities remains far above and beyond our heads, and yet oddly enough, still within our reach.

George Carlin once said - Scratch any cynic and you will find a disappointed idealist. Thats not a bad place to be ;)

Are you a disappointed idealist too?

10

10 days to the new year.
10 days to the new decade.
10 days to the new month.
10 days to a new beginning.

I wish it turns out to be a perfect 10/10 year for me and everybody around me.

Here's an early wish for all of you - Happy New Year!!!

Run Lola Run

These days Iv started walking again for reasons more than one. Something funny happened today and made me realise something I was doing all this while without taking notice. The last 100mts or so to my house, I began to jog as usual. And out of nowhere a stray dog came behind me and started following me. I got scared, that it'l bite me and take me down. I stepped up my pace to find the dog also running faster and closing in on the gap between us. Ran some more, turned back to see the dog still behind me. I stopped for a second, stood still, looked at the dog and continued walking. To my surprise it didnt follow me anymore. I was so relieved.

Walked the rest of the stretch back home, thinking how often we run away from things. The more we want to escape, the more it chases us and comes behind us to haunt us. Problems are like the Hutch tagline telling you, wherever you go, our network follows you. You try and dodge it, you'l find it around the next block. Such a futile exercise it is.

I've learnt today - Taking the bulls by the horn is the only way to go ahead, if its blocking you. I would no longer run away from things, but run towards life!!