Growing Up

Growing Old is not an option, Growing up is. In another 2-3 hours, it will be a new day and a new calender month. More so, my it is my birthday month. Il be a year older, and if i paint a picture of how my life has been so far - it doesnt look that bad. A comedy of errors if i may call it.

But there is some part of me that does not want to grow up at all. When i was a kid all i wanted to do was grow up so that i could do things on my own, work, drive. But now growing old is the scariest thing now that im approaching my 27th birthday. At the same time i feel growing old should be savoured like the finest wines.

Iv had my knees skinned, hands burnt and heart broken so many times. There is confusion about my life to date and how will it be going forward.

I know whats right and wrong.
I know how to laugh and cry.
I know where to find answers and ask questions.
I know when to dream and face the truth.
I know all the rules.
I know the left and right.
I know the foward and backward.

Yet, i know nothing at all. And im in this perpetual state of Knowing Nothing and Staying Stupid. Im a happy i am here :)

Cheers to that!

Its good to be bad!

Just the other day, i got late and made my cab driver wait for 5 minutes. Thats not too long a wait for anyone and i usually do not get late. Infact he himself was late as well. However, i was on the receiving end for making everyone wait. At the same time the other cab mates who have nakhras and also get late, but they are never at the receiving end if they get late. I naturally felt bad at this bias.

My biggest problem is that i have difficulty in saying 'No' to things and people. I find myself doing things for people readily and willingly. I find myself being nice and friendly to most people. But at certain points of time - one should say No, one should be curt, if not some people will take you for granted, consciously or unconsciously.

Suddenly Machiavelli's Prince makes sense to me. Machiavelli iterated - If a prince is overly generous to his subjects, he will lose appreciation and will only cause greed for more. He further asserts that it would be best to be both loved and feared.

Being Miss-Goody-Two-Shoes isnt always the best thing to do, there are people who will run you down, would undermine you and not appreciate you. Your nice, easy going friendly demeanor makes other people take you for granted. Its good to be bad at times! Let people fear you, and you wont be ever taken for granted.

I seriously need to adopt Machiavellian way of maintaining public relations.

Ghummakkad Times

Went out to Cafe Morrison in South-Ex after like 4yrs. Dedicated to Jim Morrison and a haven for rock fans. You have Mexican, Arabic, Italian, Chinese and Indian Cuisine all under one roof. A friend who is a foodie and loves music would be your ideal company to Cafe Morrison.

Where am i headed this weekend?? There are two places on my mind to go to - 1) Blu-O, the new bowling alley at Ambience Mall thats claims to be the second largest in the world or 2)Howzzat @ Galaxy Hotel - it boasts of a micro-brewery within the joint with cricket as the theme.

Now that the where part is done. Working out the when is Work-in-Progress. Sounds like the weekend is going to be fun.

Amen!

Movie Review : 99

Dont know how or why TOI gave it 3 stars. Its a 1 star movie. Please dont watch it - if you do you'll be wasting your money and time.

And i dont want to invest anymore time in writing about a pathetic movie!! There are better things to do.

Circle of Life

The more i want to deny and suppress certain thoughts i have in mind, the more space they occupy and the more they spring back every now and then. Things happen - some good and some bad. And these events like the genome in our DNA are pre-destined. In someway or the other life will make you pay your dues. Thats something i never believed in and have come to terms with the paraphernalia around the 'kismet' thing. Some questions still linger in my head.

Are we following a pre-destined course of life? Thats what most people agree to. And if thats the case, Do we really have free will? Do the choices we make in life and the decisions we take on the crossroads take us elsewhere and not to the place we are destined to go to. Infact, are these decisions really ours? Or was it made for us before we were even born?

I dont believe in god, atleast i like to believe so. But then, the gods make contradictory statements too. God 1 says - 'Yeh to Vidhi ka vidhaan hai'. God 2 says - Karam kiye ja, fal ki iccha na kar. If it is all predestined - why do the karma?

Confuses me!! Logical Fallacy at its best. With all these questions in my mind, and no answers in sight, il have to wait and see and form my own theory about the circle of life. The purpose of life yet needs to be found and il know one hundred percent of the answers only when i cross the to the other side of life.

But the quest for answers is not so desperate that i want to die. There's still a lot of life to be lived. Abhi to meri shaadi bhi nahi hui ;)