Endings & Cynicism

Endings make me think. Whether its a movie ending or a relationship ending or a year ending, Endings make you reach a point, where you just have to guage where you stand and choose between what you lost and what do you stand to lose.

Endings make me look at my standings as of now. Check the debits and credits and profits and losses and finally do a reality che(ck)/(que) of what remains in the end, when the end has ended. More often than not, my reality cheque bounces. The life's bumps and bruises have made me cynical over the years. I see bottomlines and fail to see there isnt one at times coz of the pessimistic cynic in me.

The word ‘cynic’ seems to be used commonly in the pejorative, as a form of weirdness by those with little intelligence to contribute. Even GB Shaw said , “The power of accurate observation is commonly called cynicism by those who haven't got it.”

It isnt so bad to be a cycnic, we are just too observant and question facts and the realities. We just hypothesise everything negative and believe that everything is possible. We simply believe that the realm of the possibilities remains far above and beyond our heads, and yet oddly enough, still within our reach.

George Carlin once said - Scratch any cynic and you will find a disappointed idealist. Thats not a bad place to be ;)

Are you a disappointed idealist too?

10

10 days to the new year.
10 days to the new decade.
10 days to the new month.
10 days to a new beginning.

I wish it turns out to be a perfect 10/10 year for me and everybody around me.

Here's an early wish for all of you - Happy New Year!!!

Run Lola Run

These days Iv started walking again for reasons more than one. Something funny happened today and made me realise something I was doing all this while without taking notice. The last 100mts or so to my house, I began to jog as usual. And out of nowhere a stray dog came behind me and started following me. I got scared, that it'l bite me and take me down. I stepped up my pace to find the dog also running faster and closing in on the gap between us. Ran some more, turned back to see the dog still behind me. I stopped for a second, stood still, looked at the dog and continued walking. To my surprise it didnt follow me anymore. I was so relieved.

Walked the rest of the stretch back home, thinking how often we run away from things. The more we want to escape, the more it chases us and comes behind us to haunt us. Problems are like the Hutch tagline telling you, wherever you go, our network follows you. You try and dodge it, you'l find it around the next block. Such a futile exercise it is.

I've learnt today - Taking the bulls by the horn is the only way to go ahead, if its blocking you. I would no longer run away from things, but run towards life!!

Battle of the Sexes 1

After the team lunch at foodcourt, Lady D asks if everyone wants to have icecream.

Ram: I dont have icecream and dont like it either.
Lady D(retorts): Tumhari life barbaad hai.

Ram couldnt handle the remark, asks Lady D.
Ram: Tumne Kabhi Beer pi hai?
Lady D: No
Ram (smilingly): Tumhari bhi life barbaad hai.

And all others start laughing.

P.S. Icecream can also be equated to chocolates. Beer with Daroo

Tu Jaane Na

Kaise bataayein, kyun tujhko chahe, yaara bataa na paaye.
Baatein dilo ki, dekho jo baaki, aankhein tujhe samjhaye.
Tu jaane na.. tu jaane na.. tu jaane na.. tu jaane na..

Unlucky Lottery

Time and again I have made a hue and cry about things not meeting my need, cribbed about them. And then there are things that ground me, so much that I feel ashamed of cribbing and feel blessed at the same time for what I have.

This time the grounding factor was Paa. Saw it today and was taken down by it yet again just like Taare Zameen Pe. One in a million cases of a 'non-normalism' could happen to you or someone close to you. With over 3,000,000 DNA base pairs, if just one goes wrong, what follows is a life long battle of constant worry, underlying uncertainity, compassion, resilience, frequent crises, never ending hope, shattered dreams, daily challenges and the high stress and drama in their lives and so much more which probably I cannot fathom and if I try to it just gives me goosebumps.

What would you do if you were that unlucky one in a three million? One lottery nobody would want to win. But then, as far as life is concerned, expect the unexpected.